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Celexa & Weight Gain…

inMa Vie

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I’ve only been searching for a little while tonight but it appears that it is very probably (very) that Celexa is definitely one of the cluprits of my weight gain. . 13 months on my little white pills have seen me gain 50lbs and although caring…not really caring.

What to do? I am certainly a more level headed person on my 20mg of Celexa per day that I don’t really want to go off of it. I am glad I found this drug, but I did read that Wellbutrin is one of the happy pills out there that will not see you gain weight and may in fact help you lose it. I am not looking for weight loss pills but something that will help with my depression and NOT make me want to eat everything in sight.

I think a call into my doctor and making an appointment is in order tomorrow.

Just one of the steps to getting myself back on track.

  • Tiffany

    I was recently on an antidepressant that made me gain 20 pounds, in one month. Just last week, I was switched to Effexor – which seems to be working WONDERS. Its only been a week, but I’m starting to feel like my old self – and have lost 8 of those 20 pounds that I’d gained.

    I was on Wellbutrin for about a year. It worked for my depression – but I also have anxiety issues. It turned out that Wellbutrin is the only SSRI that should NOT be prescribed to someone with Anxiety. Apparently, there’s something in it which made my anxiety worse…..

    Anyway… One day at a time, I’m starting to feel better…. and I wish you the best. I know how it feels. I hope you get your meds adjusted so you can get back on track!

    I’ll be pulling for ya!

  • Rachel

    Hi, this is my first time commenting…but when I read your post I had to. I lost 60 lbs on WW a few years back. Did very well and kept it off. Until last year when I was prescribed Xanax for anxiety. I was eating like somebody was going to steal the food from me. Worst part was I was ALWAYS hungry. The deep rooted hunger pains that even hurt your stomach. I switched to taking them at night hoping that would help but to no avail. They made me feel good mentally, but weight was it was a mess. I had to stop taking them, but I ended up gaining back 40 lbs. Now I start over again on the WW program to get it back off.

    I hope you find something that works for you and won’t interfere with your goals.

    I’m really enjoying your blog!!

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Sad FaceI don’t know if you noticed or not but my weight was updated in the sidebar on Friday. Two Hundred Pounds. It should not shock me, I knew what the result would be in feeding my face with no activity.

But it did shock me, too much actually and I tried to pretend I didn’t see those numbers. In Sep 2002 I weighed 209lbs, that was the start of my journey. In Jun 2005 I got down to 141lbs. I now only weigh 9lbs less than my 2002 start. That is really disheartening and sent me spiralling this weekend into a pit of self loathing that I honestly haven’t felt since 2002 when I decided I really needed to do something about it.

I really felt the downward spiral starting Saturday morning when I was trying to find something to wear to the dog park. I wasn’t looking for anything dressy, just a pair of capris (all too small) and a tshirt (all too small!). It was too nice to wear heavy winter jeans and a sweater. I finally found a pair of trackpant capris and and a not too tight top. I felt awful and it only got worse and so I ate.

I know, I know – food is what got me into this mess. I have not given up from last week’s restart. I hope though that it will not take me 3 years to lose 50lbs, I don’t think I can do that again. Also, during this journey I plan on getting some help with my food issues so that when I do get back to 150lbs, I will not see myself doing this again.

  • The Better Idiot

    I’m sorry things have been so difficult for you, but I’m glad you’ve started again and are getting yourself back on track. I used to follow you ages ago when I was going through my own first real stab at weightloss, you probably don’t remember but it was when Bev’s forum was still up? Anyway, it’s nice to ‘see’ you again.

  • JP

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It's Not About Him This Time

inMa Vie

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I wanted to post about a comment left that Jeff is the cause of my depression. Nope, wrong. I have had nothing to do with Jeff since basically July when we called it quits. We say hi, here and there on facebook and we went out for dinner when I got my smart – but other than that…nothing. He even called two weeks ago to see if I wanted to come down for dinner and I said no. Yes, I declined.

But when he called this Thursday about my birthday, I said yes. So my current mood has nothing to do with him at all. There is no pattern right now that contains him. If you read my blog since the dawn o’ time…you will see this pattern is me.

  • melissa

    sorry if i have upset you, I just thought that it might be the lingering Jeff that holds you back from creating the new Trish. Sometimes it’s more clear from someone looking in from the outside, that’s all. I have been reading for some time now and I can’t help but chime in when I see you down in the dumps, often times it has been because he either called or that he is just plain, still on the brain.

    No offense meant, hopefully none was taken.

  • Suzannah

    Trish, I agree with you, it is not Jeff. I think you are in a rut. Weight loss seems like the key to a better life. So you keep recommiting , caught in the renewal stage. That is an illusion. I think you should really challenge yourself to rethink all the beliefs you have about your life and relationship. Not to sound corny but I think you need to find yourself!! And discover you are such a wonderful person that you DESERVE all that you want out of life. Try to challenge yourself to put weight loss aside for 6mons. focus all that mental energy else where, like animal rescue or habitat for humanity or religious activites or anything that ignites your senses outside of your apartment. I bet the weightloss will start finding you, and you will find Trish is a beautiful person with a wide variety of interests. One last thing, think of going to a funeral of alovely size6 woman, and someone who viewd her body said” yes she maintained that size 6 her whole life” I don’t hink the people who loved her would consider that even worth mentioning.
    I enjoy your journal, you bless my life with your sharing, Thank you


In Hiding

inMa Vie

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I am not sure what is going on with me. I have been very down in the dumps for a bit now and cannot seem to climb out – yet I don’t feel depressed. I love working, love my job and I enjoy it when I’m there. But once it is done I come home, go to my bedroom and sit on the computer and that is where I spend the rest of my day. The weekends…the same but with naps throughout the day. It is like I do not have an apartment – just a room.

The other weirdness is that I do the dishes, I dust, etc – I am not letting the apartment look like my normal depressed states. I may not do it every Sunday like I used to but it does get done and the place doesn’t look like someone lives there alone in her bedroom with her dog…feeding her face.

I am still writing my CGA quizzes of my MS1 course. I have not given up per se, but something is definitely wrong.

I’m wondering if I’m in hiding. I don’t like going out and in all truth I hate it. I hate the way I look and nothing fits but I don’t want to spend more money on clothes. I have TONS in the closet, TONS! So I hide. Please excuse me while I go back to it.

  • melissa

    Start living today, don’t wait till you lose weight. Get out and do stuff….who cares how fat you are. If you don’t accept yourself no matter the size of your jeans you will ALWAYS battle your weight. You have to be able to love yourself FAT first….go on, get off the computer and go join a gym or go out with some friends.

  • Chrissy

    Trish, have you ever heard of Seasonal Affective Disorder? It affects millions of people many of which do not realize they have it or that it exists. I live in Alaska and suffer from it every year. I’m also a primary care provider in my village. Might want to try upping your Vitamin D intake through vitamins. And look into getting a SAD light. 10,000 kilowatts is the least that you need. Anything less than that is just unaffective. With the season change, we see this in lots of people every year. Love your site! I’ve been a lurker for a long time. Hang in there!

    Chrissy’s last blog post..Another Year Older

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inMa Vie

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Still no treadmill. I have to make arrangements to pick it up and I’m using a co-worker so I have to work with her schedule. I was noticing myself this morning that I was looking rather slobby…when I gain weight I just stop caring and even though I do my makeup every morning as well as my hair, etc – it is not with the same care as I do when I am feeling good about myself.

I am so low on clothes right now as last year when I regained 20lbs, I had gotten those buggers off in a few months time so most of my fall/winter clothes are for my size 9/10/12 self, not my current 14. It depresses me that I have no clothes and I don’t want to buy any either.

Anywho, yes – depressed about myself BIG time. I know I have to change, I know I just have to suck up and do it. I know.

Note to self: call my insurance broker as I have still not received a hard copy of my car insurance papers for the smart. Just the PDF file they sent the day I was picking her up.

  • Claire in CA, USA

    Aw, Trish, you’ll get it off again. Don’t be so hard on yourself. Time to take a deep breath and just start again. I had to do that recently, and I think it helped my outlook on everything. Despite the fact that we are sinking financially, and things are just not that great overall, I feel okay. God is taking care of us, and I am taking care of my body, which helps me to cope better.

    Begin again. No beating yourself up. girlfriend. Hugs.

    Claire in CA, USA’s last blog post..If I’m a party girl…

  • Jackie

    I know its hard Trish. Your moment will come when u are motivated to do it. Just don’t give up! You will do it!

    Jackie’s last blog post..Almost Friday!